Thanks for F'n me without even saying THANK YOU

I feel so completely violated right now... Sunday I log into my email, like any start to any other day, to find my in box flooded with email from PayPal. So I start from the bottom and work my way up and well the gist of it is PayPal feels my account was accessed by a unathorized 3rd party - well I ain't no computer genius but I know enough to know NEVER EVER click on a link within an email regarding these kinds of things, could be some type of phishing scam.

So I do the good non techno geek thing, close out my email, open a new browser, type paypal's web addy in my addy box and go to their site. Log in and sure nuff my account has a hold on it - so PayPal takes me thru steps to resolve the hold - change password,

CHECK,

change security questions,

CHECK,

verify the account tied to my PayPal account,

CHECK....

A few later I get an email from PayPal saying my hold has been removed and they certainly acknowledge that some 3rd party asshole, no sorry ASSHOLE, did try to access my account to the tune of $968 and some change but no funds were sent to anyone. Ok problem solved....

OR SO I THOUGHT!

So its now Monday and I log onto my bank account to make sure a bill pay went thru and what do I see, but $885 and some change withdrawn from my account by PayPal.

WTF is going on - I'm in immediate panic now... well... because I ain't a rich girl for gosh sakes I work at a school district - so immediately I find a phone number on PayPal's website and call customer service - I am told that while they acknowledge that an unauthorized 3rd party did try to access my account and they stopped that, that they have no way of knowing I didn't want those funds taken from my bank account and put into my PayPal account, you fucking WHAT.... ok dumb asses so now what do we do to rectify this situation as NOW you've overdrawn my bank account for gosh sakes - well ms. it will be 3-5 business days before the money POSTS to your PayPal account THEN you can request a transfer back to your bank account, of which it will take another 3-5 business days to get it back to your bank account AND get this, cost you $1.50.

YOU ARE GOING TO FUCKING CHARGE ME FOR YOUR SCREW UP please tell me your joking. Uh no mame that is our policy.... what to steal other peoples money... well mame no unauthorized person got your money... UH YES they did and their name is PAYPAL! I was fuming, FUMING and what pisses me off even more is that PayPal probably ONLY caught this because I don't keep those kind of funds in my PayPal account... I had like $80 in there, to cover iTunes purchases and stuff so what PayPal did is take the difference of what I had, the $82 something, and then took the add'l $885 something from my checking account to make up what this other asshole was trying to swipe.

So now its beenies and weenies until I can get this financial matter resolved - I mean what a flippin' nightmare. This person might as well broke into my home, and stole my purse and my car keys for gosh sakes cause I'm not so sure I just didn't get fucked without as much as a thank you as it was. I didn't even get to smoke a cigarette afterwards.

Would have been 49.....

Well tomorrow would have been my ex's 49th birthday, but his death on Oct 20th kind of negates all that. Its sad really, Michael was a wonderful, kind, caring and giving soul and knowing he has two loser brothers that are still here just kind of makes me wonder - but God has different ideas then I do.

Mike and I remained friends after our divorce, we'd chat via phone and/or email at least once a month. A lot of things went into our seperation and subsequent divorce and I was as guilty as he, maybe more so on different levels. He only wanted the best for me and wanted me to be happy and well... I wasn't sure what that meant for me, and reality is, I still don't. I've been thinking about our life together and how I wish I had said some things that I didn't and now will never get the chance. I constantly wonder, if I had stayed, could I have stopped the drinking and other things he was doing? Would my staying have meant he did less of them then he was in the end? Would my staying have meant he might have started to take better care of himself?

I just wish I had one more day, just one day to say the things to him that I've never had the courage to say - but life doesn't work like that. Tomorrow will certainly be a difficult day.... I will have to make a point to call his friend Gary too. Gary and Mike had been best of buddies since they were 17, sadly Gary was the one to find Michael dead and I know being without his best friend, even though they fought from time to time, has been very hard for Gary.

Michael I hope you know you are missed, but I also like to think God had reasons for needing you more then we did.

How do you spell relief?

SUMMER VACATION... since my college operates on quarters rather then semesters, tonight happens to be my last final for this quarter, then Monday, Summer I starts, but not for me - between a new full time job, a software conversion at said job, and triathlon season coming up, I've decided to put my education on hold for now.

Its still important to me to finish but some other things need attending to right now and my pea brain can only handle so much - besides I am sick and freakin' tired of group projects where no one does a damn thing, yet MY grade depends on it - if I could handle failure, I'd just do my part of the group project and let everyone else fend for themselves, but I can't handle anything less than a B.

Sometimes I wish my job had a summer vacation.... I mean I do work for a school district but my position is year round - life at school doesn't just shut down because kids and teachers are out for the summer... and of course folks think the office staff have nothing to do all summer... please if it wasn't for what we do take care of over the summer, the whiny teachers would only have more to whine about... not that all teachers are whiney but good gosh some of them drive me crazy.

I should be studying for this final but I just can't get into it and hell if I don't know it by now, I'm pretty screwed anyway.

A whole new meaning to the term HOT DISH

Egads... talk about freaking you out... went to warm up something in the microwave, didn't want to dirty a dish so I grabbed a paper sort of plate from the cabinet, popped my stuff in the microwave and thank goodness I didn't like walk off to take a pee or anything.... damn thing wasn't even in the microwave for 30 seconds, then all the sudden I saw this FIRE appear in my microwave... I turned off the microwave, pulled the plate out and tried to blow out the fire... finally had to throw the plate, still on fire, with my food, in the sink and hose it down - good gosh.... now the entire house smells like a fire, my snack is soaked and when I turned over what was left of the flippin' plate is said
WARNING COULD BE FLAMMABLE, DO NOT PLACE IN THE MICROWAVE... I mean who the hell makes a paper like plate you can't put in the damn microwave....

Thank goodness I was right in the kitchen getting some tea to go with my snack or I could have burnt down the house - definately a whole new meaning for the term HOT DISH!

SNOW??? WTF!

I'm beginning to wonder if I live in Alaska or what. I can't believe they are calling for S N O W this weekend - damn it anyway I am sick and tired of being cooped up inside - i despise the cold and so wish when I moved in 2004 I would have moved to California or Florida where its stinkin' hot

My new laptop

Is pretty neat... nothing fancy, don't really need anything fancy, but geesh what a difference a few years makes in laptop production... Old laptop is pretty heavy.. got it in 2000, not only does it have a full qwerty keyboard but it has the number pad on the side - however the sucker is big and bulky... and well... dying - its lived its life I guess, and while it was a gift, it was quite expensive and was top of the line when I got it...

This is a Dell Vostro that I got for less than $500 and that was with upping the memory on the thing too, ordered it and had it in less than a week - good thing it will get plenty of use this weekend lots of research to do for school for papers that are due next week that I've not really even started on!

Has Spring FINALLY Sprung?

Well it sure seems so this weekend, its been beautiful. Haven't been out doing things outside as much as I'd like but that is what procrastination on school projects will get ya - the penalty of being stuck inside when you do get a nice day.